It is quite a cliche, isn’t it – how time flies. I have yanked out unaffordable ten minutes from serious work to update. The points and thoughts would be (perhaps, as usual), random. Bear with me.
- Our home is close to a school (not the one my child goes to though). Since school reopened, they have been having events almost every day. Sports, annual day etc. The PA system is fairly loud, and we are subjected to the programs quite a bit. Today is some event for the lower primary classes – I, II and III. The chief guest or whoever said “we need to guide our children gently so that they can slowly understand what they want to be in future”. My knee-jerk thought was “what about what they are now?”.
- The year started with a close marital relative being hospitalised in critical care for breathing issues. Made a quick dash to their home town, amidst the kid’s exams, my own deadlines etc. She is marginally better, out of critical care now, but still in hospital, and the guilt I feel is enormous. The guilt of not being there, although I have made every possible arrangement for them – 24X7 attender, food delivery, etc. Oh guilt, you are out to kill me.
- I have realised that I have double personalities. The first half of the menstrual month is lovely. I am everything I want and dream to be. Calm, composed, collected, unemotional and pleasant. With the ovulation pains, I can feel the dark side take over, and the mind becomes jumpy, nervous, out-of-control, emotional and unpleasant, all of which growing in a crescendo into unbearable levels until deliverance. The light-to-dark transition is very apparent to me. I am curious about which of the two personalities would take over once the hormonal see saw ends.
- Deadlines looming and I am still not up in full throttle. Getting nervous
Dang, gotta go. Shall hopefully write again sometime today. Too many thoughts.
Also, for those who have not heard back from me on your comments, please excuse the shoddiness. I shall reply shortly.