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Songs that make me cry: 9-Dec-2016

I started writing this post four times and deleted them because I was terrified that it would send me down the rabbit hole of grief again.  I am re-starting the fifth time, not sure if it will see the light of day.  If you are reading it, it means I overcame the emotional block to write about it, which means there is hope for me yet.

I always thought I am a very pragmatic and emotionally cold person. So it surprised the hell out of me that my grandmother’s death on Jan 17th this year hit me so hard.  Almost a year later, I still feel the nondescript pain in the chest region when I think of her.  But at least I am not hyperventilating with grief, that must be a good thing.

What has that got to do with a song to make me cry?

In her last week alive, my grandmother was admitted in a hospital, in which the elevator music was the instrumental rendition of a song by The Carpenters that I have heard, liked and in fact, sung myself in various inter-college events in the past.  I have always maintained that the best way to kill a favorite song is to use it as a ring tone on the cell phone.  I add another caveat to that – use it as elevator music, especially in a hospital in which your loved one died, and you have essentially killed that song in you. I wrote to the hospital director (who is also my work-client) asking him to get rid of the elevator music because it is very annoying.  I haven’t been to the hospital since, so don’t know if they took my suggestion or not.

A couple of weeks back, I was listening to music, under random sort, which my daughter had stored under “Amma’s kitchen songs” in her iPod, when I was cooking (duh !) and this song came up.  The stomach gave a violent lurch and I pulled off the headphone and flung it across the kitchen in abject panic.  Some day, I will be able to listen to this song without going into a panic attack, but it will always be associated with my grandmother and the miserable week in January.

Yesterday once more  by The Carpenters

When I was young I’d listen to the radio
Waitin’ for my favorite songs
When they played I’d sing along, it made me smile

Those were such happy times and not so long ago
How I wondered where they’d gone
But they’re back again just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o, still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling, that they’re startin’ to sing’s, so fine

When they get to the part
Where he’s breakin’ her heart
It can really make me cry, just like before
It’s yesterday once more

Lookin’ back on how it was in years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad, so much has changed.

It was songs of love that I would sing to then
And I’d memorize each word
Those old melodies still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o, still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling, that they’re startin’ to sing’s so fine

All my best memories come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry, just like before
It’s yesterday once more

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o, still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling, that they’re startin’ to sing’s so fine

Every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-o-wo-o, still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling

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Songs that make me cry -Dec 8, 2016

Good things come in threes, it seems.  Which means I’ll probably have one more to go.  Today’s song was brought to my mind by Rob’s post about the Pearl Harbor memorial day, in which he reminds us all to be friends.

The first time I heard this song was in 1996.  I was in grad school and on this particular day, studying for my end-sem exams in my lab. A friend and lab neighbour attempting to study with me, played this song on his CD player.  I can’t study when there is music playing, so I took a break to listen to it.  I remember sobbing uncontrollably at the end of the song, freaking the guy out.  I had listened to the Beatles since I was ye high, but I had not bothered following the band members individually since it broke up.  So, when I heard this song, I was taken aback that the chap who wrote “Lucy in the sky with diamonds” (Ok Ok, the LSD reference is a myth- eye roll) came up with this.  Once the friend was convinced that I was not out of my rockers, he made me watch the video, which made me cry even harder. For the next two years that we were lab neighbours, he treated me like a bomb ready to explode.

The specific words that still touch me are: Imagine no possessions| I wonder if you can| No need for greed or hunger| A brotherhood of man

“Imagine” by John Lennon

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today… Aha-ah…Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion, too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace… You…You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as oneImagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world… You…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

The video is here

Songs that make me cry -Dec 7, 2016

I wrote earlier about my relationship to music here.  While music by itself overwhelmes me, sometimes lyrics can render me catatonic.

A friend’s recent post reminded me of a song I love. Gave me an idea for a post series – songs that make me cry.  Today’s song is Come from the heart, by Don Williams.  Although the music is very simple, the lyrics are profound.  The specific lines that tear me up every time, even as I am typing this out is “In life as in love, I need to remember, There’s such a thing as tryin’ too hard”

“Come From The Heart”

My daddy told me when I was a young man
A lesson he learned, a long time ago
If you want to have someone to hold onto
You’re gonna have to learn to let go.

[Chorus]
You got to sing like you don’t need the money
Love like you’ll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody’s watchin’
It’s gotta come from the heart if you want it to work.

[Instrumental]

Now here is the one thing that I keep forgettin’
When everything is fallin’ apart
In life as in love, I need to remember
There’s such a thing as tryin’ too hard.

[Chorus]
You got to sing like you don’t need the money
Love like you’ll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody’s watchin’
It’s gotta come from the heart if you want it to work.

[Chorus]
You got to sing like you don’t need the money
Love like you’ll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody’s watchin’
It’s gotta come from the heart if you want it to work…